The time that I’ve spent with Vik atm is pretty awesome, despite there being regrets already which I shouldn’t have done, which I feel REALLY bad about. Basiclly, I know Vik likes me, but I didn’t know how I felt about her as I still had leftover feelings for her from like six years ago. We ended up kissing and now I feel bad because I feel like I’ve taken advantage of her because of that. I only regret it because I know now that I’m not really that interested in her anymore, and she knows that, and I feel like I got her hopes up and tore that away from her straight away. She says that nothings gonna change, but I don’t know, because that is kind of something that changes people, even if its a slight change, but its a change nevertheless.

Anyway. I bought Left 4 Dead 2 today and I enjoyed a small portion of what I’ve played already. I don’t know if anyone I know still has it now, but I’m sure there are people still willing to play. I’m still slightly disappointed by the fact that I only got the reduced amount from my JSA instead of the full £100 that I should have got, considering I’m currently not working at the stadium for a little while. I have 3 more days left to spend with Vik and after that I’m going to go to the doctors and get referred to that specialist as soon as I can. The illness thing is really starting to take its toll on me mentally because I’m still scared to go out in case I defecate  in public, once again. I feel like I shouldn’t have to live with that kind of embarrassment especially at 19.

We’re off out tomorrow with a few of my friends, going Mosh, getting pissed and just generally enjoying something I haven’t done in like months.

Anyway, I’ve had enough of this blogging shiz for the day.

Bizzle.