Okay.. Lately I haven’t really been feeling myself. I have no idea why, but I’ve been feeling a tad bit depressed and lonely the last few days and my head has been fucking around with me all at that point and I don’t get why, and the crap thing is, it is getting worse every day. Nothing substantial has happened lately to warrant this feeling so what the hell is it about..? I mean, I guess I could chalk it up to one of life’s great mysteries and accept that this feeling proves I’m human, but that isn’t enough for me. I want to know why I feel like this and sort it out. 

So lately, this winter malarkey is getting on my nerves. Yeah, I’m not outside much during the winter, but for god’s sake, when I’m out there I just want to freeze over and be done with it. Shit hasn’t got this real in ages and I don’t remember having to wrap up in so many layers just to keep remotely warm a few years back. I want winter to finish up as soon as possible to be quite honest.

I’ve not long bought two games on Steam and to be quite honest, I’m not regretting both purchases one bit. The first game I bought was Left 4 Dead 2. Despite already having this on the 360 and had my fill of it, meeting some new people got me wanting to play it with them, so I bought it. Not just for them people but because I prefer them kind of games on the PC as I’m more… Responsive, I could say. I bought this for £15 which I didn’t mind forking out for because I will have this game forever. No disks to scratch up, no messy installs, no losing CD-Keys, nothing like that. A clean, legit copy of the game. 

The second game I bought, I was already familiar with because I have played it before. This game is Evil Genius. It’s a base building kind of game where you are plonked on a remote island, left to plot out and build a base to eventually take over the world. I had alot of fun on this game way back when and I’m sure I will continue to have fun on it now. And for the VERY low price of £1.75, how could I not take this up? I mean, yeah, I could just pirate a copy, but lately, I wanted to have a physical or a legitimate representation of games and films. I don’t mind forking out a couple of quid for a very underrated game. 

And yes, I have noticed I haven’t written alot as of late, but can you blame me? My life isn’t exactly exciting and I don’t think alot will happen to make it exciting. But oh well, that IS life for you. I will try to get more things down, but if I do, it’ll end up being a diary instead of a blog, just mentioning the same things over, and over, and over, and over.. You don’t want that, right?

Anyway, I think I’m going to go bed pretty soon, as my head is being all emo still and I don’t like it. I’m actually disagreeing with my head for once. So yeah, fuck you brain. 

Peach out, Ash.